A while back I wrote about an evening I shared with friends, we talked about our anger and essentially howled at the moon. Barely 2 weeks into the new year and I’m in need of a similar evening. Frustrations are mounting, the universe is giving with one hand and taking with the other…and it keeps raining!

I feel the need to write a list of things I’m good at just to remind myself. Unfortunately the things I’m good at aren’t particularly valued and don’t seem to be able to earn me any bloody money. Looking at the jobs in my area have validated my approach and the need to retrain, but with that comes the need to gain new experiences…which also appears to be a near impossible task.

I’ve trawled the internet for ‘feel good’ and inspirational articles but none are working today. I’m aware I can be a bit of a try hard, but its tiring to try so hard all the time. Oh I can imagine a self help person would say something about relaxing into the time and learning how to wait. Well I’ve been waiting, how long do you wait? Or another one would say just do it, make it happen, if you want it enough…but how the **** can I make someone take me on for work supervision? or make someone publish my articles? Advice welcome. I’ve worked for free, written, plumbed and taught. January can do one. Let’s hope February is better…or at least sunnier.